[Personal]: Sweet & sour

“再深的深情容忍 也不能 让你再爱我
我不怪你 不是你的错”

I remembered everything so vividly...

Till now, I still miss you.

The memories are kept deep inside my heart.

I smiled every time I recalled it.

Does it matter to you as much as how it does for me?

We both missed the chances...

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We known each other in year 2007

I might forgotten how we became so close, but I remember everything you do for me.

Every s-i-n-g-l-e thing.

Do you?

The never ending phone calls...

The never ending bus rides after school...

The never ending chatting at void deck...

The never ending of accompany me no matter where you are...

Maybe I took things for granted, I thought you would always be there for me..

I never thought that one day we'll be drifting apart.

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The years that spent with you is so memorable.

I would said it's the sweetest things that a guy would do for me.

You just know me, what I want, what I need.

You do everything without me saying.

But why did I still treated you as a friend? I don't know too.

Maybe the time isn't right then.

I forgotten how you know where I live...

I forgotten how you know where I studied...

I forgotten how you know I'm afraid of going home alone at night...

But I remember how you walked me home...

I remember how you always carried my heavy stuff when you picked me up from school...

I remember how you save me from all the awkwardness...

I remember how you appeared in front me when I need accompany...

I remember how you rushed back to Hougang just to sent me home...

We both started to drift apart during year 2010.

Because I was having my stressful O-level.

I came to know that you started working when I went for my 1st job interview.

That was also the date that you sent me a message which I won't never forgot, and never asked you why...

Then I got into a relationship & ignored you completely. I admit I do miss you sometimes after so many years of not contacting with you. I felt so guilty.

Two years passed by, my relationship was breaking apart. I felt so miserable. I don't know who to tell.

I decided to text you. You called immediately.

As usual, we chatted for 3 hours.

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We met up during year 2013.

You grown up like a man, not anymore of the small boy that I used to know.

I went up to the familiar house again.

I don't dare to go in anymore. I don't want to think of the past...

We went for dinner, we ate till the shop closed.

It's time for me to go home, you ask me:"Need I send you home?"

I kept quiet.

Then you said:"Accompany me back home first, it's still early."

I smiled. So we walked back to his house and chill for few hours.

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After that day, we totally didn't contact anymore..

I don't have the courage anymore..

Will we remain like this forever?

I'm sorry that I didn't hold on to this friendship tight enough..

I'm sorry that I don't get your meaning when you did all those things for me..

I know I can't turn everything back anymore but...

What can I do now?

Nobody would ever treat me the way like how you used to...

I miss you, G